Mi hermanita...

"Wow that girls hair is big!" were the thoughts that came to mind when i saw her first day of highschool...Come to find out we were in the same homeroom and locker partners...so every day for a whole year she dropped her books on my head..that was sign of great things to follow lol. I was innocent and naive ..she was funny as hell and "corrupt" but not in way that would make me get in trouble with my parents and in school jus in the sense that would teach me ...LIFE>>

10 years have come and gone...and that friendship has only grown..i rephrase..that sisterhood has only grown and gotten stronger and the memories can fill a book. the one person that truly knows me is her...yet lately i find sad thoughts lingering in the back of my mind.

I dont remember the day..i cant even remember if it was last month or 2 months ago when she called and said " i have great news!" my reaction was are you and the big H having babies already of course jokinly lol...after a couple of laughs she said she was moving...which of course is great..her and big H moving on to bigger and better things...but she's moving to ROCKLAND!!!!!! and yes i know Nik lives in Rockland..my point exactly!...i rarely see Nik and yes I rarely see Jackie...but like my mom said..."ese puente es demsiado largo"...a bridge is not enough, a country is not enough to break us apart, yet i'm saddened that shes' moving away :( bc even though i dont see her now...i know she's only a couple of blocks away...and jus knowing makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside :) she says she'll visit but i wonder how long that will last..sometimes its so hard to jus get her on the phone...will she really visit? i know it may sound silly...and yes im happy for them...but a big part of me cant let go..

i know people say we're growing up, we're moving apart, but that doesnt mean things will change. i know some day i may have to move as well..but i hate even thinking that i may have to live apart from my friends. i dont want to grow up ( lol) ..i don t want to be apart...i jus wish i could go bak to highschool and hold on to those years for a little while longer...days when we'd only dream about wat our lives would be in the future...but yes the future is already here...and its taking her a bridge away...my thoughts will jus hav to settle and accept and hope that she does visit ...

Octubre...

It's been a cra--Z month...but this past week i think i worked more than i ve ever worked, my body is still feelin the pain...and sometimes i doubt myself..or think not enough of myself in this entrepeneur world..but hell i dont think i can put more of me into this than i'm puttin now or than i put this past week...like i said my body is still feelin' it. its funny bc speding 13 hours of my day in a place of relaxation means no relaxation for me...yet when people say i love what you ve done with this place and seein them happy w their experience...my soul relaxes jus a bit. Sometimes i feel like a soldier waiting to be told "at ease"...but when one person out of 100 i see a week asks how are "you" doing...it makes my world stop for a sec and think oh yeah...i cant forget "me". So i have to say to me..."Ladys i think u're doin ok for urself in this world...even if people dont acknowledge it right away...just remember all your hard work will pay off one day." Hopefully not to far away bc mami needs a new pair of shoes lol. So cheers to spa week bein a success....and man do i need a Spa Day!!

oh yes...and great seeing my lovely ladies...always bringin me bak to a place i love to be..and tiny bubble love how u deal w the craziness in my world muah!