book of life

who am i to judge you? but i dont judge you i simply ::sigh:: because i know you...
actually i used to know you.
when did your heart become so sour? your mind become so foul?
you flip through the pages of your life novel as if the novel has a never-ending story.

did you not learn from our elders that every decision has its consequence and every consequence has a broken heart..that may possible never heal.
you take books out the library that you dont bother reading, you simply molest its cover without knowing its true meaning.
the books scream out for attention but you dont bother listenin'
yet every book has a lesson which gives our life a stronger meaning..
you fail to see the creases on the cover that with your behavior you've created...it wears and tears and fills with dust...screaming for a reading.

eventually it will become a part of the pile you've created in the corners of your dark soul, amongst the sadness you can't fill with meaningless readings, amongst the baggage you carry day to day without seeing that they have lost their meaning..
except the one you continue to hold which is to make you more sour and bitter.

one day you'll see that void in your heart and soul is not so simple to fill.
you'll have to take time to really read your soul and figure out its ailments and how to start its healing.

so i say to you...rethink your actions...because one day you'll flip one page too many and you'll have lost the chance to write a beautiful, meaningful story...

Rainy Day

so it's been a while since ive been here...and indeed its been hectic since my last post. Between graduations, birthdays, mothers day, weddings and babyshowers it has been a quiet eventful month and a half. now we're in june with this "so called" summer and time continues to fly by. more birthdays, father's day, showers, baby arrivals etc.

through all the events and gatherings and partying my mind still takes a break here and there and stops and thinks about all the things happening. my bff is due in a few weeks and seeing all my girls together in a room made me realize something...we are definitely growing up lol...more like we are definitely grown ups. where and how did i think that time had stopped for us. i thought we'd be young girls, partying, and discussing what classes to take and wat outfits to wear forever. now its planning babyshowers and bachelorette parties and the 5year baby plan or the 5 year buy a house plan.

we go through the motions of work, day to day events, major events and forget to stop and breathe and remind ourselves that time is not stopping for us. if anything these days its goin way to fast for me to keep up with it. its great to live day to day and enjoy the madness or the simple days...but i m wondering am i ready for the 30s and for all the things i want to acomplish before (or during) those years get here. or is it something i should not worry about? i mean last time i checked i was just turning 24 on the verge of opening a business...now i'm 27 with a 3 year old business and it really feels like it happened in a "blink of an eye" . i'm more concerned with helping my dad realize he really needs to start thinking about living a more relaxed life and retirement...and forget that i too want to plan for a more stable income, housing, and eeeeeeeeeeeeventually retirement.

it really just hit me...its great to enjoy the birthdays, weddings, showers, nightly outings...but i need to also focus on my serious goals...bc the daily events are just events...not guarantees or ensurance that the rest of my life will be stable and exactly or more than what i dreamed it could be.

hora de ponerme las pilas!!

BIG SHOUT OUT!!! to in my opinion parents of a lifetime...to my papi and mami...for not 1 or 2 but 3 kids through college!! great job! lets hope we can accomplish the same in the future hehe.

until next time...hopefully a more sunnier, hotter summer day :)